An Amazing Surprise!

Hello you beautiful people!

So I'm not normally one for surprises, especially when people begin to try and wind you up about what is going to happen but not actually telling you the 'thing' that is happening.. Do you understand what I mean? It is so hard to explain! Like they would say "I know something you don't know" or similar which quite frankly, gets irritating! 

Anyway, since my dad lives over 300 miles away from where I live, I unfortunately very rarely see him around the holidays and with the postal prices nowadays he usually ends up transferring money into my bank account so I can buy myself something instead of buying me any presents and having to send them to me. HOWEVER! The christmas just gone I still hadn't received anything in my account after a few days, which seeing as I knew my dad was out of the country for christmas and new year, I automatically assumed he was waiting until he returned to the UK before transferring anything over. So obviously I just left it and thought nothing of it until one morning a few days into January, I recived a package.. 

AND THIS CAME!!

As I was opening the mysterious brown box it came in all I saw was the words MacBook Air and I started crying with happiness (I know I am pathetic!) I was actually shaking and crying!! I have wanted a MacBook of some kind for years now and over the past few months I have without a doubt been on the Apple Store reading reviews and the different things they can do every week. How my dad knew I have wanted one for so long I don't know!

I seriously love it, if you could be in love with a Mac, this would be living proof right here! The day I got it I just sat for hours doing nothing with it open, doing nothing.. All I wanted to do was be on it but I hadn't a clue how to use/work it!! *laughs* 

I am so very grateful and thankful to my dad for giving me one of the best surprises I have ever had! Even from miles away! This is something I will never forget and wanted to share with you guys..

This is it from me for now, I'll speak to you again soon!

Lots of love,

toesontoast

x x

P.S Look for the answer inside your question

Get Up!

Hello you beautiful people!

I was scrolling through twitter this morning and my eye caught this picture

'Sometimes we can't stop ourselves from falling, but we can push ourselves to get up and try again.' I felt these few words speak a thousand more.. Different things happens each day that can both make and break us, wether it be something little or something big. You don't always have the power of preventing things from happening, however you do have the power of deciding how you're going to deal with it, and that is what really matters. Remain positive no matter how hard it may be at the time, in the future you'll look back and be proud of yourself along with being happier. 

This is it from me for now, I'll speak to you again soon!

Lots of love,

toesontoast

x x

P.S If you want to fly, you have to give up the stuff that weighs you down

Happy New Year

Hello, you beautiful people!

I have always felt the new year to be an exciting time for the reason that it is the beginning of something new, a fresh leaf, a blank page. It is a time of reflections and plans of developments not only to the life you live but also to yourself. 

Each year I set myself goals, goals that do not necessarily have to last the entire year but for myself to at least give my all in hope of completing for the time period set. Although the new year is an excellent time to set yourself resolutions, I believe that if you really want to do something then you will do it in the moment, don't sit around waiting for the right time just do it now.

My main resolution of 2015 is to maintain a healthy weight and lifestyle, to not essentially eat less but to really just move more! Exercise gives of happy endorphins that can instantly make you feel better about yourself, and that is the only thing that really matters. I also have a couple of smaller resolutions which are the typical 'no more fizzy' and 'be a better person' that I am sure I will be able to pursue.

I'd love to know what resolutions you guys have, let me know! 

This is it from me for now, I'll speak to you again soon!

Lots of love,

toesontoast

x x

P.S. She believed she could, so she did

Scary Times!

Hello, you beautiful people!

I am currently at the point in my life where I am having to start applying to Universities which in tern means I need to begin writing my personal statement and decide what pathway I would like to journey down to create the building blocks for the rest of my life - SCARY!

I'm not sure how I feel about Uni, sure I have always wanted to go because I have always known what I want to do career wise, however it is not that simple. All of my life I have dreamt of one job and one job only until just recently when I started questioning myself because honestly, this world is humongous! - and the job opportunities are endless! So deciding on one seems like the hardest decision ever..

In a number of ways I feel ready, ready to take the next step into my future but sometimes I feel like I am not at all ready, and honestly - this scares me. I don't want to grow up, I don't want to live in the 9-5 repetitive world. I want excitement and adventures! I sometimes want to spend my life travelling the world meeting incredible people, making crazy memories and just living, but then I also want that quaint little bubble life where it's just me, my partner and my kids (hopefully). Choosing ONE thing to do with your life seemed like such an easy decision growing up until I actually have to do it. Obviously I wont be travelling the world for the rest of my life (imagine me, or even yourself at 80 odd on a road trip across America - very unlikely ha!) as much fun as that would be, I need to focus and actually think for once.

So yes, I have almost finished my personal statement (it's currently a few hundred words too long.. whoops..) which has been a nightmare to write. I mean, having to sell yourself to a Uni and make yourself sound like the most interesting person in the world without fibbing is insanely difficult! Although I have just about managed to do it. Just.

Also, I have no expectations of Uni whatsoever. I enjoy sixth form and I enjoy learning but I know for sure that going to Uni is a complete different ball game, it's not as laid back as what most sixth forms and colleges are when it comes to doing the work to an extremely high standard as well as handing it in on specific deadlines. Which if I am completely honest with you guys, I am TERRIBLE when it comes to being on time with anything! Literally, if you want me to be somewhere by a certain time, I would encourage you to tell me an earlier time as I am more than likely going to be late!

I guess this all has to change though, like I said, it's scary and I need to get my butt into gear and hopefully find some positivity before the time comes otherwise I'm sure I would regret not making the most of my higher education times - as well as making new friends which is a complete other story that I will enlighten you all on sometime in the future. Anyway, I think it is time for me to complete my application and see what the future brings..

This is it from me for now, I'll speak to you again soon!

Lots of love,

toesontoast

x x

P.S. We fly balloons on this fuel called love <3

Finally...

Hello, you beautiful people!

For many many months, if not years I have pretty much dreamt of beginning a blog/vlog channel online after much inspiration from current bloggers and YouTubers such as Zoella, inthefrow, SprinkleOfGlitter, Tanya Burr, Niomi Smart and many more. So after creating my SECOND blog page, I have plucked up the courage to actually write a post, because it may seem like no big deal but to me, this is actually quite scary!

There is something about blogging and vlogging that I have enjoyed for such a long time now, so much so that I have wanted to try it myself. For a while I tried to come up with a 'theme' for my blog but after a lot of brain boggling I came to the conclusion of just going with the flow. I would much rather have a blog page full of my random rants, raves, loathes and loves with a range of subjects/categories compared to having to stick to a selected theme of beauty for example. (Not that I would be much help to the beauty lovers out there, that is for sure!)

Anyway. I honestly haven't even thought this first blog post out, I just decided that today is the day! I have just began typing and this is what has happened (not much). In actual fact, I did get my laptop out to do some revision for my A-Levels but procrastination has lead me here! I am hoping to do at least one or two blog posts a week depending on how motivated I am seeing as I am probably one of the most lazy people you will come across - as you will soon come to learn. Hence the reason it has taken me SO long to begin blogging. As I already said I haven't got a theme, so some posts may be right up your alley and you'll hopefully (fingers crossed) love, and others you may think a few naughty words because that is more than okay.

This is it from me for now, I'll speak to you again soon!

Lots of love,

toesontoast

x x

P.S. Even if you're little, you can do a lot!