Daily Vlogging!?

Hello you beautiful people!

Here's a crazy idea.. I want to begin daily vlogs!

Since stumbling across the fascinating world of YouTube in 2007 I have always, always, always wanted to create videos but being at the age of only 11, the ideas I had were far from reality. Over the years this idea of creating and uploading videos to YouTube has evolved enormously, as well as coming back down to the reality of what can actually be done.

I thought about uploading a weekly video to a YouTube channel but after writing lists of ideas I do not think I am 'interesting' enough to do that, along with the fact that weekly fashion/beauty/routine videos aren't my forte. So I've come to the conclusion of doing short videos around 10 minutes each every day whilst at university. 

I've chosen to do daily vlogs whilst at university to not only keep memories for myself and hopefully future mini me's, but also for the possibility of helping other people beginning university in September this year. Even more so if they have applied to do the same course as myself. I just think that it will be a fun opportunity to store the memories as well as the challenging times that lay ahead!

So on that note, I will hopefully see you in September over on my YouTube channel! But this is it from me for now, I'll speak to you again soon!

Lots of love,

toesontoast

x x

P.S You create your own opportunities

Scary Times!

Hello, you beautiful people!

I am currently at the point in my life where I am having to start applying to Universities which in tern means I need to begin writing my personal statement and decide what pathway I would like to journey down to create the building blocks for the rest of my life - SCARY!

I'm not sure how I feel about Uni, sure I have always wanted to go because I have always known what I want to do career wise, however it is not that simple. All of my life I have dreamt of one job and one job only until just recently when I started questioning myself because honestly, this world is humongous! - and the job opportunities are endless! So deciding on one seems like the hardest decision ever..

In a number of ways I feel ready, ready to take the next step into my future but sometimes I feel like I am not at all ready, and honestly - this scares me. I don't want to grow up, I don't want to live in the 9-5 repetitive world. I want excitement and adventures! I sometimes want to spend my life travelling the world meeting incredible people, making crazy memories and just living, but then I also want that quaint little bubble life where it's just me, my partner and my kids (hopefully). Choosing ONE thing to do with your life seemed like such an easy decision growing up until I actually have to do it. Obviously I wont be travelling the world for the rest of my life (imagine me, or even yourself at 80 odd on a road trip across America - very unlikely ha!) as much fun as that would be, I need to focus and actually think for once.

So yes, I have almost finished my personal statement (it's currently a few hundred words too long.. whoops..) which has been a nightmare to write. I mean, having to sell yourself to a Uni and make yourself sound like the most interesting person in the world without fibbing is insanely difficult! Although I have just about managed to do it. Just.

Also, I have no expectations of Uni whatsoever. I enjoy sixth form and I enjoy learning but I know for sure that going to Uni is a complete different ball game, it's not as laid back as what most sixth forms and colleges are when it comes to doing the work to an extremely high standard as well as handing it in on specific deadlines. Which if I am completely honest with you guys, I am TERRIBLE when it comes to being on time with anything! Literally, if you want me to be somewhere by a certain time, I would encourage you to tell me an earlier time as I am more than likely going to be late!

I guess this all has to change though, like I said, it's scary and I need to get my butt into gear and hopefully find some positivity before the time comes otherwise I'm sure I would regret not making the most of my higher education times - as well as making new friends which is a complete other story that I will enlighten you all on sometime in the future. Anyway, I think it is time for me to complete my application and see what the future brings..

This is it from me for now, I'll speak to you again soon!

Lots of love,

toesontoast

x x

P.S. We fly balloons on this fuel called love <3